Thursday, May 09, 2013

Not feeling well

I guess I can’t hide it, everyone knows me too well.  Kathy says “I know you are flaring because you are not posting”  And my poor husband, he knows because when I don’t feel well apparently I am a bitch to be around. 

So if everyone knows it why am I trying to hide it?  Why am I denying to myself and everyone else that every muscle in my body is screaming at me?  Why am I hiding the fact that I’ve slept 31 hours in the last 48 and still feel like I could sleep another hundred hours? 
I upped my prednisone this morning, just a little, hoping that will help this flare up.  I am prepared to up it again tomorrow if I don’t feel better by the end of today.  I hate taking pills, but I hate hurting more. 

I refuse to let this get me down, and if I have to take more meds and get that dreaded prednisone puff, so be it.  Right now I’d rather look like the Stay Puft Marshmallow woman than hurt like hell.

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